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A Slippery Slope

There are few things that I regret more than letting myself physically go again, back in December I was happy with the state of my body. I could run long distances and was easily able to complete my daily push ups, but after what happend I sort of gave up. It's always hard to start again, and right now I know that I should do it, but at the same time I do not have the care or desire to do anything. I don't know how people keep their selves motivated or get out of bed every morning, when there always seems to be a much easier solution.
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To Being Lazy

There has not been a single day that I have placed effort into since being at college, somewhere among my time at Univeristy I sort of just gave up. I can't place the day that I stopped trying exactly. Maybe it was the constant parties my flat mates were having which stopped me from sleeping, or the time that they let homless people fall asleep in a drunkern stupor in front of my bedroom door. There were so many points that were against me. The Univesity itself felt like it was against me, with the course that I signed up for not being represented by the classes that I was taking, in the three years I was there I completed sixteen classes. Of all of those classes I took, only four represented the course I applied for, it did not help when this prestigious school even lacked the tutors to teach us. With the tutors we had lacking any real merit, or ideas of what they were trying to get across to the students. I remember the times I spent all day at College, teaching myself new th...
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A New Path

With everything going on in the world it really makes you think when your stuck inside for this long, what should I do with my life? It's as if this one moment of respite from my days has truly made me think about what I am doing. What have I done with my life, there is so much I want to do, and yet I keep wasting away the days. I wasted so much time watching videos and playing video games, that I have not really done anything with my life. I kept saying I will tomorrow, though I know tomorrow will never come. Yet here I am stuck with the virus, no longer entertained by video games, something I have lost passion for a year ago and simply forced myself to keep giving it another go. I have wasted my life trying to do things, while never placing my all into the task. So many things I tried and gave up so soon, it's sad when I look back at things. Even worse when I think how incomptent I am at even talking to others about them, that the only chance I have is a blog that will st...
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